Anguish of Love...

Blessed Be, and Passion to ALL
I Send You My Love…

Love has been a major part of my life
I had many lovers in Moscow and St. Petersburg
hearts melted into one, letting go to universal oneness

So many friends in these two cities in Russia

Then Jamuna...

Her Dark Eyes
Her Beauty
Her Talent
Her passion

The love I feel for this woman is unlike
any I have experienced in this incarnation

We are connected at the soul level

The combination of language and
cultural background differences
was too great to over come.

The love attraction I have for Jamuna
is beyond the boundaries of the Cosmos...

The many phone calls and messages from
Jamuna, such as "I breathe you,
I drink you , I eat you.
You are my soul. Is it love? What is love?"
"I miss you"
"I love you"

After months of calls and visa problems,
Jamuna arrived at New York's JFK Airport.

The intensity of the relationship
coupled with language and culture barriers
lasted in the flesh for exactly one month...

December 7, 1998 through January 6, 1999

I now suffer the human experience
of anguish for a lost love

She says Swami Virato who met her
at the airport in New York
was not the man she fell so
in love with in Russia.

I am that man, and I always was...

I have received the Divine Gift

I have lost "Moscow's Virgin" and heart throb

It was a deep love relationship

In the Institute's Retreat for 30 intense days
Jamuna and Virato were delicate lovers...
abandoned and melted into
the love of existence.

(or so I thought...)

My desire to bring Jamuna into the
American ways
easily gave the impression of the
scolding father
She says I am impatient...

She is correct.

She left me...

I pine and cry...

She is frightened...

Like the little kitten she has run...

She will not speak with me...

I love her so very much...
she is my very life force...

Now I shall heal with the
experience of being human...

It was one of those continuing
education courses in guruhood...

I can never forget the most beautiful
women on the planet in Russia as my lovers...

I am truly blessed...

I love...

Ah, and now I let Go....

  I am at the retreat in Black Mountain...

It is late...

I haven't cried in several hours

She calls and says,
"I Love You."

Blessings & Love,
Swami Nostradamus Virato

The Nepal Institute
PO Box 17397
Asheville, NC 28816

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